I deserve to feel wanted. I want to feel like I’m some sort of priority. I haven’t been a priority to anyone in two years. I shouldn’t sit here and feel like I’m friend zoned. I had no where to rant. And no one to rant to. So this is now where I’ll do it.
I wish I could explain to you how hard the last two years was for me. But how absolutely grateful I am for the past year. And that I’m completely ready to do this. I’m ready to give everything again. And that’s a big deal.
It’s kinda sad that I don’t think it’s ever gonna happen for me. I saw an old friend today. She said “you look so good. You must get hit on all the time.” “Actually, no. Not at all” “what?!” “Yeah. It just doesn’t happen.” Sad life I live.
There’s one thing I have to say, so I’ll be brave. You were what I...
My birthday is in 8 hours. Consider me pumped.
little black book.
i put a lot of stock into the randomness of things that happen. i feel like things happen for a reason, there’s no randomness about it^. there’s a reason i watched this movie. out of all the movies on netflix, i picked this one. and i got the answer i was looking for, just in this one scene. to give background information. Stacy happens to get ahold of her boyfriend’s palm...
i've got another confession, my friend.
i’m no fool. you played me. i was just something to pass the time. i wasn’t anything to you, besides someone to replace her. and now, i’m hurt. you were so careless with my feelings. at first, i thought—thank you for proving to me that love isn’t real; that no matter what, i won’t get what i deserve; that i’m done giving, only to be broken. then i...
i went to a psychic a week ago and she told me to shed some anger, to write it all down on paper and burn it the day before i turn 21..it’s is my time to be real with myself. This is the one piece of paper, that no one will ever read. Nobody’s eyes will ever see those words. How free it feels already, to be completely open with myself, and know that no one will ever understand it. No...
what would you do...
what would you do if you weren’t afraid? god. this question blows my mind. think of everything that you didn’t do, simply because you were “scared.” all the times you were afraid of getting rejected; of getting hurt; of it not turning out the way you wanted to. man. life would be a lot different if i had done all those things. i would have talked to a lot more people. i...
“no its okay. i don’t want to hurt you! but i’ll tell you what i do want. i want someone who will be monogamous and nice to his mother. and i want someone who likes musicals, but knows to just shut his mouth when i’m watching lost. and i want someone who thinks being really into cars is lame and strip clubs are gross. i want someone who will actually empty the dish washer,...
i really need to stop romanticizing things that should not be romanticized, or don’t need to be romanticized.
one of my all time favorite pictures of me and logey. so candid. so awesome. from romeo and juliet.
Unless it’s mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it’s a waste of your time....– Dream for an Insomniac (via quote-book) one of my favorite quotes.
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my sister got to fucking see KANYE WEST last night. she was finally home when i got home from school today, and she started showing me videos. at one point, we were in my kitchen, singing Power, and i was dancing like a giddy school girl. god. chills. loved every second. on TOP of that awesome sistership moment, she fucking bought me an AWESOME shirt. now i didnt become a KW fan until this year,...
i got hacked.
“oh how am i gonna get over you? i’ll be alright, just not tonight, someday. oh i wish you’d want me to stay. i’ll be alright, just not tonight, someday.” it only took me 8 months. but it’s relieving to say i am finally over you. i’ve heard that the general rule is that it takes half the time of the relationship to get over someone. well, we were together...
love is not enough.
its been a while since i have felt inspired enough to sit down and finally write. i do love to freewrite, i really do. when it comes to writing papers for school, i suck. but when it comes to freewriting, i feel like i have a bit of a knack for it. tonight i had a long in depth conversation with 3 beautiful ladies about love. these ladies, i’m lucky enough to call my friends. anyways,...
first day of school.
today was the first day of school. I had financial accouting from 10-10:50. then managerial accouting from 11-11:50. then macroeconomics from 2:30-3:50. first of all, that’s a whole lot of ‘business’ classes for one day, and man…it was exhausting. it probably didn’t help that i barely slept last night, due to waking up multiple times from nightmares. to update those...
I’m currently dating a boy named roger. he’s an artist, a really good one, at that. he told me the other day that when he gets his new apartment, the first day I go there, he’s gonna make me sit at a piece of canvas for two hours and if I don’t paint something and let some creativity out, I can’t come back till it’s finished. now I’ll be honest, I’m...
in the end, you're always alone.
I guess I always knew that you wouldn’t last. girls never do, with me. a couple months here and there—in no time, you become just like every other girl that I love to hate. one year. July 14th. that’s how long (give or take) we’ve been friends. and it’s been really good. you’ve always been good to me. when I would have a boyfriend and I would push you away, you...
i was sitting here wondering why talking is so important to me. i mean, i could really hold a conversation for hours. in fact, i had a table saturday night that i didn’t even want to go near my other tables because i couldn’t stop talking to this one particular table. well while i was thinking about this, it dawned on me. words mean so much to me. one of my favorite things in the...
TGI Friday's should weave the song "Friday" into...
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a picture i found.
go after her. fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do. if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come. don’t let people happen to you. don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. there are people i might have loved, had they...